Yesterday, I went out with Paul (animated Korean dude) for dinner because he lost this bet and had to treat me =). I ended up learning the Korean alphabet, well... sorta. So maybe I will learn more than Chinese while in Taiwan. Paul is like this 26 year old that acts so young, sweet and innocent. Like chilling with him just fills you with this happiness because he has such a positive innocent attitude. Like in the middle of a conversation he would tell everyone how he luvs Disney songs and start singing them all. Or pick up a giant piece of grass and tell us how he learned to fling it like a rocket when he was very young, and then demontrate. The grass rocket shot like 20 meters! Like when he speaks, you can tell how enthusiastic and thrilled he is to chat with you. So genuine, and not like just small talk entertainment. Its amazing how he can have such a healthy lifestyle too. You guys have to meet Paul, hes such a character! kekeke.

Fellowship tonight was cool. We went to this uncles home, and he had a great sound system and plasma TV. He luvs classical music and we watched Holowitz performs Mozart, I think. It was great! Then we had dinner there and the fellowship councillor (Pastor? Deacon?) told me he wanted to practice speaking English with me because he had to teach his classes in English now for his University. Hope I can help, but I realize my English is deteriorating. Not that it was any good in the first place. =S So the girls went to Shida night market after dinner, and had fun chatting and shopping around. Ying Fen Jeh is so young at heart, such a sweet councillor as well.

So tomorrow, I will start my trip to Taidong, then Green island and Kenting. Hope it will be fun!

Just came home from lotsa family time, with relatives and eating out. But now, I feel so lonely. Maybe it is because this week, I called back home a lot. I chatted with people that I havent chatted with for a long time. I really miss them. I think it made me realize that here in Taiwan, as much as it is fun, I lack the true friendships that I could depend on in Canada. Here, I meet new people all the time, but it is like they are just entertaining me for a while, or vice versa. There is little true connection. And because I have met many people, I dont always chill with just a few closely. I lack the community that I had in Toronto. I guess this is part of the culture shock I am supposed to be feeling. The ups and downs of the emotional rollercoaster. A few days ago, I had this sudden panic attack because I suddenly felt very scared. I was scared that my parents may be unsafe in Canada, I was afraid that I might be unsafe in Taiwan. That there were so many uncertainties in this world. That maybe I wont make it back to Canada alive, just so scared of all the uncertainty. I prayed at that time, because there were so many thoughts and emotions running through my mind. I suddenly felt so out of control. But in my prayer, I was reminded that things are not in my control, it is in God's control. He is watching over me, and I dont need to get all freaked out and worry about the little things. That really comforted me, and then I felt better. Right now, I just feel kinda lonely. I think I really need to meditate on God's word more, because here I have been so busy with random things, that I havent taken time out for God. And to think, I had thought that I could be such a good witness here, so strong for God. But now, I can see I am so weak. But an encouraging point is that after my fellowship on Saturday, I was encouraged about how they were so joyous in the Lord. That I really need to live out my Christian walk visibly. on Saturday night, I actually had a conversatio with Uncle Victor and Uncle Adolf and Auntie Paula about religion. Prior to that, I had thought about how will I bring up religion to chat about what they think. But strangely, my Uncle Victor brought up the topic. Although after the conversation, they just got a better understanding of why I believe in God, I think it is like they are interested in spiritual matters. I can only pray and let God have his work continue, whether it be through me or others.