I feel numb. School is no longer a fun place to be, probably because my best friends are away... This semester sucks. *sigh* The added pressure to find a job now doesn't help either. All of the uncertainty. Hermitting myself behind my books doesnt help either... this reminds me of how I believed that we should work hard and play hard, else where would there be motivation to work? Well... I guess I haven't been playing hard anymore, so I do not feel like working...

It's true that I have realized I cant really plan out my life, because God probably has other plans... Like with all the natural disasters, and uncertainties... it is probably a waste to time to worry over these little issues... but I still do... maybe I will laugh at myself later... maybe this is reverse culture shock... at its worst because my best friends are far away from me... my thoughts are everywhere...

On an high note... my parents are hilarious... they always talk about funny things and make me laugh... they remind me of kids sometimes... =) I want to be able to take care of them... they dont give me pressure about job search... but I give myself pressure... parents are getting old... I wish them to go have fun... *sigh*