Blessing!

=)

Over the last few weeks, I have been thinking about is it even possible for God to use me here... I ask to be a good witness, but is anyone noticing? All that I do is seems so small, ex) I just read my Bible at night and pray, or I chat with people about church when they tell me they are going, pray before my meals... not like leading Bible studies or anything... and I know I have been very weak here, because I can hardly express myself fully to people and my English is deteriorating too...hummss...

Strangely on friday, after my nap, my computer does not turn on, no response at all... OMG! my pictures~ If I lose them I will be soooo sad =( I didnt back them all up, especially the most recent ones... WHY WHY? I ask... Whenever I have problems I ask my roomate (other than that, we rarely chat because she always seems busy), she says she can take me to the computer shop to try and fix it. I am actually really surprised that she was willing to do that, I just expected her to tell me where it was. There, they said they cannot guarantee that I can recover my stuff, but they would try... =( *sniff*. So Ankie(my roomate) asks me to eat dinner with her, I am so surprised she asked because I always thought that she enjoyed her time alone...

At the restaurant, we chatted a lot. It's funny how it all started with my questions "So, Ankie, do you have a boyfriend?" =) The answer was no, and then the conversation continued stupidly about guys... then it led to how she has been feeling kinda sad and lonely lately... like she has no goals... and she feels like she needs people, but she makes herself be alone alot. I feel bad, because I am her roomate, and I have not been very caring for her, just because I fear I will bother her work and she will get annoyed at me. Then I pop up the question, "Do you want to come to CHURCH with me?" She replies, "YEAH, I wanted to ask you if I could join you, but I felt it would be WEIRD." I was so SUPRISED. Then I told her that GunGun (Guy from church with cancer, that was her classmate) asked me to invite HER when he knew that she was my roomate, but I FELT TOO WEIRD TO ASK.~ Even though her reason to go to a physical church is to search for a feeling of peace and comfort, I believe that no matter what wrong motive or reason anyone may have, God will change them. So, I was very excited to hear that she wanted to come to church. We finished up dinner and she had to go to her lab, I went to play pool up the mountain at the Arts and Culture center with Tung and MIS and his class. We decided to go jogging after that. I told Ankie about jogging, and she was also interested, so at like 1030pm we went jogging. It was nice to have her there, and I think she enjoyed the company. Tung was acting all crazy though with his funny Chinese, but it was so jokes =)

So now, I feel that the computer breaking must be a blessing, because else I would have never had that chance to chat with Ankie... and EVEN if I need to LOSE my pictures... (as I really cherish my memories here) I should not feel so bad... its hard... but I'll get over it...=)

Ok... Saturday... I left a note to tell Ankie I will go to fellowship, because she was sleeping (she always sleeps in the day because she has to be very very tired before she can fall asleep) I ask her to call me if she wants to join, but she doesnt. I was still thinking a lot about our conversation on Friday night. During fellowship the thought of "wow, God can use all my weaknesses and stupidy for his Glory" was running through my head, but there was a hint of pride like... will I be able to lead someone to Christ!? but then I realize its NOT about me... and I am happy just to see someone realizing there is something missing in their lives. It is true that I cannot really carry out a lot here, because I will leave in less than 2 months... I have prayed for Ankie a lot here, and hope she continues to search for God. I asked the fellowship here to pray for my roomate...

That night, I went to a night club birthday party... I met this guy named Sean =) this point really has no relation to the story above... but I just had to but it in...=P

Ankie was still awake when I got home, I told her church starts at 1030 tomoro morning, if she wanted to join me, and she jsut nodded her head. It was already 4am, and I knew that it would be hard for me to wake up... so I thought that Ankie wouldnt really wake up. But I prayed that I not make so many quick judgements, but trust that God has his plan. I wake up and begin to get ready, Ankie is still sound asleep. Then I hear her voice, asking if I was going to church and I said I would leave in 20 minutes. She gets up, and gets ready. I later ask her how many hours did she sleep and she told me, TWO... WHOAH~... I had like 6, and felt so tired... but she had 2 and still woke up. She usually likes to sleep when she is very tired, and not wake up until she is ready... but this morning she got up even though she was soooo tired.

We had service, the sermon was about arming ourselves with Gods word, prayer and faith. She met Gungun after and we had lunch together. I found out that this is actually her second time to the church. The first time was 4 years ago for Christmas. She had come home from shopping and heard beautiful music and decided to bravely join in. I know she feels this void and wants to fill it. After lunch, she asks me whether I can go with her to Catholic church, I tell her I have never been to one, but I will go with her is she wants to check it out. I tell her that I cannot make a Catholic church my commited church because there are some different teachings that I do not agree about. She says she just wants to visit the church itself, not necessarily the service. Strange... but it will be interesting =)

must have Faith...

please pray for Ankie =)